I went to a yoga nidra class last weekend. I had heard about the practice and I sort of knew what I was getting myself into but I did not know what my reaction would be to the class. The format of the class included some movement to get the body warmed up, then about an hour of guided savasana meditation. It felt like awake sleeping. Being pregnant, I cannot stay in one position for too long without getting uncomfortable. So, about half way through the meditation, I felt the urge to move. I started worrying and feeling guilty and, ultimately, second guessing myself. I worried about the baby - was I sitting at too deep of an incline for him to get adequate blood flow? Was he alright? I started feeling guilty about being so distracted and potentially moving positions, thus disturbing the teacher or the people around me. Then, I started second guessing myself- did I really need to move or should I just suck it up and stick with the position I was in? Or was it my body signaling that it was time for a change and it would be beneficial to both me and the babe to move?
This is an example of something that I have experienced and heard expressed often from others. There are many points in our self-discovery journey where we second guess ourselves and become confused by the difference between our intuition and fear. We don’t know whether to keep going, keep digging and moving deeper, or whether to stop and rest or readjust.
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